怡保后的成长

今夜因为要支援医院系统, 所以到现在还没有睡.
回想之前种种, 有种不胜感慨的感觉.

我很感恩, 因为神一路保守教导应许.
来到怡保, 上帝都在带领.
祂鞭策我, 使我看到自己的骄傲, 自卑, 疏忽, 懦弱, 小信, 倔强, 语无伦次和冲动.
有些时候, 急于回答, 急于求成...
有些时候, 立场不坚, 三心二意...
有些时候, 不甘示弱, 自私自利...
结果就是, 看不见神的恩典和缺乏信心.

房间的角落里存放着我最珍贵的圣经, 吉它和手提电脑包.

这些日子, 我开始学习...
袒露自己的软弱... 不因为自己的疤痕而不敢坦诚面对人.
寻求别人的帮助... 不因自己的虚荣而闭口不言自己承担.
求取学问要坚持... 不因痛苦或没有进步便无心继续努力.


虽然很多时候, 仍然会傻傻地想起某些事某些人, 痛.. 不过, 愿神指教我成长向前.
不是不再爱, 而是正确地爱, 爱得没有强迫, 爱得没有惧怕.
我知道上帝是个忌邪的神, 祂不要我们爱人多过于爱神.
神会赐福我的生活,家人,恋爱,工作.
祂只是要我学习正确的生活节奏, 成为一个能带领伴侣一同荣耀祂的人.

我的愿望是...
神您教导我如何去爱.
神您医治我身上的疤痕和热疹.
神您带领我的每一个脚踪, 赐福给我及身边的人.

田野风光

我喜欢自然, 因为偶尔的机会, 拍下了一些简单美丽的风光.

如果有一天, 我有能力了, 我希望能开始稻田种植的生意.

不是因为稻田特别赚钱, 只是认为" 民以食为天".

在世界各地每个人都想着如何赚钱致富时, 没有发觉到食物短缺的险象环生...

就算不是如此, 米乃是一国之. 若能自给自足, 解决最基本的民生之道, 就立于不败之地 =P

重写的信主见证

信主见证:

My background and before i am a Christian:

我从小生长在一个基督化家庭. 从小,父母就带我参加教会的聚会,活动. 懂事以来, 就在儿童主日学学习神的话, 接着, 到少年团契的聚会, 直到青年小组, 如今还在. 虽然如此, 我并不是从小就明白救恩而且非常惧怕死亡.

When I started to discover the evangelism:

还记得, 在12岁那年, 我变成一个卷不离手的书呆子. 我非常喜欢读故事书和历史书. 就在那一年, 教会出版了儿童圣经, 以故事方式记载了上帝从创世记到启示录里的事件情节. 当母亲买了那本昂贵的儿童圣经时, 我就整天爱不释手地阅读它, 而且在短短的三天内读了好几遍. 尤其是当我读到以诺和以利亚的时候, 更是深深地震撼了我的心灵. 小时候我读过的盖世英雄, 管他是一统天下的秦始皇, 多多益善的韩信将军, 还是盖世无双的西楚霸王项羽最后都逃不了死亡的结局. 如今, 从这儿童圣经, 那与神同行的人, 以及那为神与天下为敌的先知却可以直接被神接上天. 也是从那时候开始, 我非常认真地学习神的话, 明白救恩, 也在同一年, 教会师母带领我做个人信主祷告. 在少年时期, 因为不确定我12岁那年是否认真明白, 所以自己又一次认罪悔改信主.

After becoming a Christian:

其实, 信主前和信主后, 我并没有多么显著的改变, 我还是继续参加教会活动, 继续服侍和参与团契事工, 甚至还是会软弱跌到犯罪, 如发脾气等... 不过, 如今我开始明白我的真实身份-神的儿女. 我知道我不必再惧怕死亡和黑暗权势. 祷告读经时, 不再是例行公事, 而是真的要明白神的话和祂的旨意. 信主的道路并不是平坦大道, 但因为神的同在, 一切都不再困难. 如今, 只能在神的恩典中紧紧地抓住祂和祂的应许.

2014年1月16日重写

刘裔煌

Fantasy

I don't want to live in a fantasy world.

Be earnest and live the life to the fullest.

Accept myself for who I am, be honest to myself and everyone else. Let those who able to accept the real me (good and bad) come near me and I will be keep improving from there.

Hold me tight, my God :) 

Sorry for the chaos this two days :(

Good Friend, Good Brother

I have many good friends and buddies... though... most of them are not here with me in Kuching.

There is one of them that celebrated his birthday just a week ago. Our friendship is so special, dramatic yet sweet.

I still remember i met him in a camp when i am in the secondary school. He came from another district.

Since then, we only met once or twice a year. However, the bonding between us stays strong. We always write letters to each others (perhaps what's called pen-pal). We phoned each others once in a while and our conversation can lasts 30 mins or even an hour. 

Things get harder after my SPM examination. There're many things happened that changed me... and then i moved to Kuching. We did lost contact after that until i started my university life. In a short trip back to Sarikei, i met him at the open-air food court. We exchanged our contact numbers and contacted each others via phone calls after that. The weird thing is we can still feel the intimacy friendship between us. Sometimes i think that it is because we both appreciate the friendship.

Few months ago, he transferred to Kuching because of the job. Even so, we didn't went out so frequently because both of us are so busy with our own jobs. However, we are always there for each other if either of us get depressed and need an ear. I can sit there and silently listen to his words whole night. Of course, occasionally feedback with appropriate responses. He will do the same for me if i needed one.

At the night of his birthday few days before, i took him for a glass of special wine and then we headed to the riverside for a simple birthday cake. He made three wishes that night. I can still remember his three wishes... It is simple yet touching. I truly prayed that his wishes will be granted and may God bless my friend who is also my brother.

I always belief that friends and brothers will not changed themselves for the benefit of us but they will be there for you and they will always help you and support you in the path of seeking for truth and maturity.

Proverbs 17:17

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

Proverbs 12:26

A righteous man is cautious in friendship, but the way of the wicked leads them astray.