如果没有来生

如果没有来生，生活无需任何约束。
如果没有来生，生命不存任何希望。

如果没有来生，为人不必任何正义。
如果没有来生，为钱不忌任何手段。

如果没有来生，做人待事唯有利益。
如果没有来生，作奸犯科唯有钱财。

如果没有来生，拿云握雾唯有诡诈。
如果没有来生，拿刀动杖唯有暴力。

编按：
如果没有来生，此刻不会些许内疚，我就不会如此生活。。。
如果没有来生，此刻只管吃喝快乐，我就尽情享受今生。。。

父亲

人有生老病死。

但，我却下意思的认为它不会临到我身边的人。

人有阴晴圆缺。

但，我却总不能体谅亲近之人的脾气与心情。

人生不总是蓝天白云。

但，我却还不能坦然面对狂风暴雨或炎日曝晒。

当事情发生时，我们总是悔恨当初。

当风平浪静时，却做不到居安思危。

上两个星期，我父亲因为肾结石，进而导致尿管发炎，甚至全身发冷发热，酷似骨痛热症。

他坚强的形象刹那变得软弱无比。

他那因疼痛而发出的唉哼声让我觉得他从前教导的男儿有泪不轻弹的道理不攻自破。

有那么一段时间，我觉得自己甚至轻视他。

不过，身为大儿子，我还是最终义不容辞，送他入院观察，轮流陪伴他左右。

在医院将近一个星期后，父亲做了个小手术，解决了尿管发炎的罪魁祸首，也在几天后康复出院。

那时候，我才感叹，人类真的好软弱啊～

任你以前是个叱咤风云的大人物，还是平淡无奇的小人家，始终不能躲过人世间的生老病死。我本该早就明白这个道理，身为基督徒，这一切，圣经都已经清楚表明，不过还是选择忽视。

我不是个乖顺孝子，时常与家人争辩，面红耳赤是常有的事。

不过，我感恩，因为最终大家或心里或嘴上都会疼惜彼此。

（不知是我错觉与否，我反而觉得，完全不争辩或吵架，却选择沉默，让我觉得冷漠可怕，有距离感。）

我的父母真的很疼爱我和其它弟弟，就在刚才，我父亲还主动帮我按摩黑青的伤口呢。

我很庆幸，当初神让我留在古晋，也庆幸，因为女友和个人选择，我后来也没有选择去外国工作。不过，我希望神继续引领我前面的路，以至我能够在生活的各个层面做出平衡的考量和决定。

千万别等到......
“树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在”

过去的几个月

Take the moment and make it perfect. 

说易行难啊～

回想过去，很多时候，当时候并不觉得有任何改善，但是回头一看，态度真的改变了人生。

重拾打球跑步的习惯。鞋坏了！该换了！

减少宵夜，不过还是享受和友人一起去吃马来店的“炸香蕉”。

教会联合主办的“一家亲”生活营。在海边＝）

去参加表哥的婚礼！

XEE三福训练！

郊外伊班教会的少儿主日学里的一个少年人。很享受和他们一起的时光！

我父亲特地买给我庆生！

^_^

端午节到了。有帮手那么一会儿:p

Lubok Antu 考察时候遇到的小孩，缠着我陪他打羽球 :)
后面是还有一位可爱的小女孩！

顺路看看 Batang Air 的 Long House Resort.

突击自拍！
其实我不好这口的。久久一次吧！

人生哪，既来之，则安之，不可好高骛远，也不可以无进取心。

好好的过每一天，脚踏实地，一步一脚印地去追求人生的梦！

P/S: 我学会了放下和珍惜，很快地，我将能够完全地义无反顾地告诉妳了 :)

Double-minded 三心两意

Doublminded - dipsuchos is an odd word. 

It means “two souls” (two psyches). 

Synonym is diakrinesthai. 

That “doubt” is not about intellectual decision or reflection. 

It is about failure to act! 

The root of this word is about a turning point where action is required. 

It is like coming to a fork in the road and hesitating, not because you don’t know which way to go but because you are tempted to take the other path even when you know it will lead away from your goal.

The kind of doubt is the refusal to act on the basis of God’s word. 

God reveals His pathway, but I hesitate. I say to myself, 

“Does God speak the truth?

 How do I know I can trust Him?

 Does He really care for me?” 

That is dipsuchos. 

It leads immediately to failure to step forward on God’s character. 

And, it is sin!

(quoted)

Perfect Moment

Don't wait for the Perfect Moment.

Take the Moment and make it Perfect.

-unknown

Two books go into my Wishlist!

“Forgive me for being so ordinary while claiming to know so extraordinary a God.”
“He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose.”
“Wherever you are, be all there! Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God.”
― Jim Elliot

我怎么知道谁是爱主的?

撒母耳记上15:22

撒母耳说:

"耶和华喜悦燔祭和平安祭,

岂如喜悦人听从他的话呢?

听命胜于献祭;

顺从胜于公羊的脂油.

悖逆的罪与行邪术的罪相等;

顽梗的罪与拜偶像的罪相同.

你既厌弃耶和华的命令,

耶和华也厌弃你作王."

主对爱与不爱他者的辨别是凭他们身上真实而准确的记号的。

“有了我的命令又遵守的, 这人就是爱我的..."(约翰福音14:21)

“人若爱我, 就必遵守我的道..."(约翰福音14:23)

"不爱我的人就不遵守我的道...”(约翰福音14:24)

祂必兴旺，我必衰微！

今天，我能赚钱，有健康，有学问，皆是神的赐予，为着他的国度。

”祂必兴旺，我必衰微！”

提醒自己，永远不可以离开我一切的源头。
只要是神的国度，就不可不去，不然，一切都是虚空，祂可以给予，也可以收取。

“焉知你得了王后的位分，不是为现今的机会吗？”


努力为神赚钱，奉献。

努力为神学习，侍奉。

努力为神运动，照顾圣灵的殿，继续服侍神的国度，荣神益人。

Simple Gift Big Love

It's been a while.

I didn't really go and appreciate the gifts my dad bought.

I always know my dad cares me so much.

So much beyond others until they get jealous.

Recently, i feel so good when I finally see how everyone of us try so hard not to let the emotion gets between us.

A photo to remember.

不平静的心让我学习到交托

2014年 7月 20日 下午

曾经, 我也如此地烦躁不安. 我的心非常不平静.
曾经, 我也有向神祷告交托.
不过...
曾经的我, 只会在祷告后非常急切地想要找朋友出去游玩.

如今的我, 祷告后, 努力地忍耐, 节制, 安静自己, 思考神的话, 继续祷告.
奇妙地发现, 我的心竟然平静了.
我相信神在掌权.
继续加油, 专心地做工.
感谢主! 

怡保后的成长

今夜因为要支援医院系统, 所以到现在还没有睡.
回想之前种种, 有种不胜感慨的感觉.

我很感恩, 因为神一路保守教导应许.
来到怡保, 上帝都在带领.
祂鞭策我, 使我看到自己的骄傲, 自卑, 疏忽, 懦弱, 小信, 倔强, 语无伦次和冲动.
有些时候, 急于回答, 急于求成...
有些时候, 立场不坚, 三心二意...
有些时候, 不甘示弱, 自私自利...
结果就是, 看不见神的恩典和缺乏信心.

房间的角落里存放着我最珍贵的圣经, 吉它和手提电脑包.

这些日子, 我开始学习...
袒露自己的软弱... 不因为自己的疤痕而不敢坦诚面对人.
寻求别人的帮助... 不因自己的虚荣而闭口不言自己承担.
求取学问要坚持... 不因痛苦或没有进步便无心继续努力.


虽然很多时候, 仍然会傻傻地想起某些事某些人, 痛.. 不过, 愿神指教我成长向前.
不是不再爱, 而是正确地爱, 爱得没有强迫, 爱得没有惧怕.
我知道上帝是个忌邪的神, 祂不要我们爱人多过于爱神.
神会赐福我的生活,家人,恋爱,工作.
祂只是要我学习正确的生活节奏, 成为一个能带领伴侣一同荣耀祂的人.

我的愿望是...
神您教导我如何去爱.
神您医治我身上的疤痕和热疹.
神您带领我的每一个脚踪, 赐福给我及身边的人.

重写的信主见证

信主见证:

My background and before i am a Christian:

我从小生长在一个基督化家庭. 从小,父母就带我参加教会的聚会,活动. 懂事以来, 就在儿童主日学学习神的话, 接着, 到少年团契的聚会, 直到青年小组, 如今还在. 虽然如此, 我并不是从小就明白救恩而且非常惧怕死亡.

When I started to discover the evangelism:

还记得, 在12岁那年, 我变成一个卷不离手的书呆子. 我非常喜欢读故事书和历史书. 就在那一年, 教会出版了儿童圣经, 以故事方式记载了上帝从创世记到启示录里的事件情节. 当母亲买了那本昂贵的儿童圣经时, 我就整天爱不释手地阅读它, 而且在短短的三天内读了好几遍. 尤其是当我读到以诺和以利亚的时候, 更是深深地震撼了我的心灵. 小时候我读过的盖世英雄, 管他是一统天下的秦始皇, 多多益善的韩信将军, 还是盖世无双的西楚霸王项羽最后都逃不了死亡的结局. 如今, 从这儿童圣经, 那与神同行的人, 以及那为神与天下为敌的先知却可以直接被神接上天. 也是从那时候开始, 我非常认真地学习神的话, 明白救恩, 也在同一年, 教会师母带领我做个人信主祷告. 在少年时期, 因为不确定我12岁那年是否认真明白, 所以自己又一次认罪悔改信主.

After becoming a Christian:

其实, 信主前和信主后, 我并没有多么显著的改变, 我还是继续参加教会活动, 继续服侍和参与团契事工, 甚至还是会软弱跌到犯罪, 如发脾气等... 不过, 如今我开始明白我的真实身份-神的儿女. 我知道我不必再惧怕死亡和黑暗权势. 祷告读经时, 不再是例行公事, 而是真的要明白神的话和祂的旨意. 信主的道路并不是平坦大道, 但因为神的同在, 一切都不再困难. 如今, 只能在神的恩典中紧紧地抓住祂和祂的应许.

2014年1月16日重写

刘裔煌

Good Friend, Good Brother

I have many good friends and buddies... though... most of them are not here with me in Kuching.

There is one of them that celebrated his birthday just a week ago. Our friendship is so special, dramatic yet sweet.

I still remember i met him in a camp when i am in the secondary school. He came from another district.

Since then, we only met once or twice a year. However, the bonding between us stays strong. We always write letters to each others (perhaps what's called pen-pal). We phoned each others once in a while and our conversation can lasts 30 mins or even an hour. 

Things get harder after my SPM examination. There're many things happened that changed me... and then i moved to Kuching. We did lost contact after that until i started my university life. In a short trip back to Sarikei, i met him at the open-air food court. We exchanged our contact numbers and contacted each others via phone calls after that. The weird thing is we can still feel the intimacy friendship between us. Sometimes i think that it is because we both appreciate the friendship.

Few months ago, he transferred to Kuching because of the job. Even so, we didn't went out so frequently because both of us are so busy with our own jobs. However, we are always there for each other if either of us get depressed and need an ear. I can sit there and silently listen to his words whole night. Of course, occasionally feedback with appropriate responses. He will do the same for me if i needed one.

At the night of his birthday few days before, i took him for a glass of special wine and then we headed to the riverside for a simple birthday cake. He made three wishes that night. I can still remember his three wishes... It is simple yet touching. I truly prayed that his wishes will be granted and may God bless my friend who is also my brother.

I always belief that friends and brothers will not changed themselves for the benefit of us but they will be there for you and they will always help you and support you in the path of seeking for truth and maturity.

Proverbs 17:17

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

Proverbs 12:26

A righteous man is cautious in friendship, but the way of the wicked leads them astray.

人生起伏不定

微笑... 因为它能愉快人心.

 早上解决了医院的系统性能问题后, 前脚兴高采烈地踏出大门, 电话却响起, 下一步就是往回走, 因为有更严重的问题发生... 这份工作, 那些刹那间地大起大落, 提高了我的心理素质, 也让我变得更稳重, 所以我笑了一下, 就赶往下一个问题的所在地了.

 傍晚时分, 刚想起身回家, 同事又给了我一个难题需要我找出问题所在... 间中有好些不好受的情节就不写了... 而当我尝试了许久, 参考, 明了某些部分时, 公司却已经空无一人(除了我)... 时间已是晚上10点半左右了... 今天的计划又毁了... 嘴角翘起, 笑了, 然后对自己说: 该回了 :)

回家前, 去一家家庭式咖啡店吃晚餐, 看到当初那年幼的小孩已经变成俊俏少年了... 心里欣慰, 笑了.

回家时, 看到守卫可爱的笑容, 又笑了 :-)

人生有好多让我们悲伤的事情比如说"感情生活和工作压力", 但是笑一笑, 正面地面对它, 却是我们可以选择的 :-)

p.s. 希望我在意的人们都能够喜乐地面对每一天!

Family Guy

i m grateful for having many family guys around me and it makes me a family guy also.

Today is a public holiday and it's well spent.

Our cute puppies before we left home for breakfast.

We went to Beef Noodle at Green Road as mentioned in the Foursquare Screen Shot :p

Something i trying to avoid: I try so hard not to reply any unnecessary messages or social networking stuff while being with people. Ya... People should be the main focus and what making the moment counts!

Brought them to Mira Cake House at Kampung Gersik. My parents love it here :)

They want me to take the photo for them. lol :-)

 

Fooling with myself at Wanda store :p

Funny thing is they told me i changed. I don't mean to change but it comes so naturally.

Once i hold on to the things so important to me but i let it go today.

The funniest thing is it doesn't go away... it turns into something more wonderful and so naturally....

i think that is what God wants us to be, let it go.. let it be.. Eyes on HIM :-)

p.s. i love u...